When A Breakdown Became My Breakthrough- Growing Through the Hard Things - Ep 36

What I am beginning to understand is that my pain and my Trauma were meant to lead me here today so that I can better serve you by sharing my pain, and my scars and turning them into a purpose that can show you that you can make it too. So that you know that you are not alone and that you too, can heal and become whole again.

 

Like I've said before, this is not a one-and-done healing experience.

No meds, no shot, no cure, no superpower antidote to make it all go away. Actually, that's not true - we DO have a superpower antidote, not to make it all go away, but the power it holds is the strength and determination, and belief to know that we CAN get through this. We've dealt with the hard stuff already so now holds the space for us to heal.

 

I just heard on a podcast this week that said we have to get lost in order to be found. So I'm choosing to look at this a different way - I'm scared right now because I'm more lost than I've ever been. I found myself suddenly pulled back into the past facing my traumas as I'd never faced them before.

 

I am a mosaic of fragmented pieces of beliefs, traumas, happiness, sadness, pain, growth, love, experiences, and a beautiful mess of life lessons that create my spiritual, physical, and emotional being.

And this is my profound revelation of the week, lol - we are not the sum of ONE giant healing experience.

 

We will heal millisecond by millisecond at a time. I've been waiting for one experience, one sentence, one feeling that tells me I'm healing. That I've forgiven and can move on.

 

But I'm learning that it will be a constant practice every day of moving towards that goal and learning along the way.

 

Sometimes we fall from Grace and we don't measure up - because we are human. Forgive yourself, but don't make excuses.

Own up to it. And DO better.

 

I know your life hasn't been easy, and the cards you've been dealt have sometimes sucked. You've faced more pain, more trauma, and more awfulness than anyone should ever be asked to endure. At times, I've felt like that too.

 

But, here's the thing. We have the opportunity to open our eyes and hearts to the possibility that our pain does not define who we are. It does not define our wholeness and healing either.

 

What happens from this moment of awakening and moving forward is now MY fault. MY responsibility!

You are the artist of your life.

 

We can either remain tethered to the Traumas of our past and never take another step forward to change.

That choice is 100% yours to make.

 

But we can also have a profound breakthrough as I did this week and realize that every single day moving forward is a gift from the universe.

 

We get to decide what kind of art and colors and energy we want to create and put onto that beautiful, messy canvas that will become the greatest project we will ever work on -

 

That project is Yourself.

And you get to say who stays, who goes, how you live, who you love, and you get the chance to start over and make your new self as whole and as healed as you want to be without any limitations as you become the very best version of yourself that is possible - if you just take that first step forward.

 

Every Single Step Towards Healing Counts.

 

I hope you'll take that first step with me today.

 

All my love,

 

~ Sadie